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Today I am grateful for:

The ability to take my son school clothes shopping

The ability to turn a door knob

The ability to make my son laugh

The ability to provide health insurance coverage for my son

The ability to feed my family

and the ability to feel my heart that has broken and knowing that I have loved and have been loved.

I am grateful for the folowing:

sobriety

Family

my nephew

my sister

my brother

my mom

my dad

my brother in law

money

my house

my peace of mind

my ability to have empathy

my ability to feel

the sun

The coming summer

a warm breaze

my porch

my lawn mower

health

supportive friends

AA

a warm place to sleep

green tea

yoga

modern medicine

reflection

a sound mind (most days)

a broad base of skills

a desire to learn

a desire to succeed

a willingness to help

Today I am thankful for forgiveness, chances, love.

I am safe again.  I am home.  With only a suitcase and some clothes

I have family to watch over me.

There is nothing quite like being sick to remind one of how grateful one is to be alive…

I am so grateful for everything in my life today…

I have all I need…I am enough….I do enough……And whatever I do IS enough….

The Universe supports me in reminding me daily that I am Divine…

I feel so blessed for all my friends, family, community, networks who contribute to my life being joyful and serene and filled with love…..

I am a spiritual being having a truly unique and evolving human experience…..

And I would not be here without You…and for that I am most grateful….

I had the most life changing year in 2008 and I expect no less from 2009.  But i’m so grateful for the life I woke up to today.  I’m grateful for the laughter with my son on the way to school. I’m grateful for the kisses and love I got when my sweet man was leaving to work.  I’m grateful for the blanket and heat that working hard to keep me warm.  I’m grateful for the things I have learned today.  I’m just plainly grateful for this day.

For my god-given capability for writing well and for helping others write well. (Don’t use this blog as gauge for my writing skill).

This has earned me a living and opened up doors of opportunity beyond my dreams.

Thanks “Higher Power” - whatever you are.

What a mood I’ve been in. Someone close to me said I was in ‘mean mode’.

Step back

Breath

Look around you

Cut out the toxicity in your life as best you can

Go back to step one

Repeat.

Say ‘Thank You’ to whatever ‘Higher Power’ you believe in. If you don’t believe in a higher power, say thank you that you have so many wonderful things in your life. Yes, we all have bad things, too. Accentuate the good. Address the bad. Eliminate the toxic or the potentially toxic. Take action.

Sigh in relief.

Self-seeking will slip away. (when???)

Today, i spent most of the day NOT living in gratitude - and you know what? It sucks. I was angry at people that cared about me. I neglected them by not spending the time and attention they deserved from me, because ‘IT’S MY FUCKING WAY’ and if you don’t like it - fuck off. That’s the attitude of a lonely person. And I was a lonely person for a long time. Now I have a few people in my life that would go to bat for me, and it’s because I’ve humbled myself to ask for help when needed, I have extended my hand to others and given hand ups and I’ve learned to be happy with what is NOW. I am happy and grateful for what I have right now. When you lose that feeling, and get wrapped up in selfishness, self-seeking and self pity - man, you will hate your life. I wasted too much of my life living that way, and I wasted too much of today living that way.

I just want to say THANK YOU for everything wonderful thing/person/force/energy in my life right now. It’s a beautiful place.